Am I Crazy?

I want to start this post by saying that I blame everything that follows on three people. It's their fault COMPLETELY.

Those three people are as follows:

Rachel. Rachel. Sarah.

Let's start with Rachel #1. My original healthy friend. The girl who is always eating the salad at the bar. Who prefers kale to chocolate. Who makes brownies with dates in them. I've pretty much always envied the way she respects her body, even if I've usually found it bananas.

On to Rachel #2. Here's where it gets really hairy. Rachel is like a role model to me. She's healthy as a way of life. She routinely gives up sugar. She rides her bike to work. She swims. She hikes. She runs. She just totally gets it. I try to be more like her everyday.

And finally Sarah. I have the biggest beef with Sarah. When I met her, I immediately recognized a kindred (though thinner) spirit. We gagged in unison at the idea of a vegan restaurant. We helped consume two very large pizzas and several pint glasses of beer with our guys with as much zeal and as many helpings. We both bitched about the size of our thighs while recognizing how very little we actually do about it. AND THEN SHE BETRAYED ME. Sarah is getting married this year and finally decided- to hell with it. She's taking control of her diet and her lifestyle. She went on this wackadoo two week vegan diet. She tried a detox. She's doing so awesome. She's awesome.

Worst of all? She's making me seriously consider giving it a try myself. 

HOW DARE SHE!

Honestly though, if you could wade though that heavy sarcasm what I'm trying to say is that my amazing friends are inspiring me to TAKE A LOOK AT ALL THIS. I've been thinking about a Paleo style diet for a while now. I've got a pal named Holly who is an acupuncturist/whole body wellness maven and she makes these life-changing statements the same way I say "another Pale Ale, please." She said the number one game changer she's seen in herself and her patients is to go gluten free, or to try the Paleo thing.
I've been intrigued since she said that to me, months ago.

Today someone posted an article online about the Paleo trend, but it also mentioned a program called Whole30 that I've never heard of before. It sounds . . . up my alley. I like short term challenges (hello 52 Photos... 52 Drawings) I'm interested in this whole thing anyway.

BUT I'M HONESTLY TERRIFIED. Namely, I'm afraid of failure. But I'm also afraid of how much I love donuts and beer and big, meaty cheeseburgers and I don't want to give those up forever and ever.

But I'm also afraid that in a few years my doctor's going to say, "Ok, but really, you are too heavy." Or that Brett and I will try to have a baby and we won't be able to. I'm a trend right now. I'm apart of the obesity epidemic in America simply by virtue of being overweight. That's brutal. It's a weird feeling. I hate it.

The thing I sort of like about the Paleo gig is that it's not a diet and it isn't about losing weight. It's about overall health and lifestyle changes.

The point of this post is- AM I CRAZY? Should I do this? Thoughts?

PS- Brett is going to kill me when he reads this post!